Thanks

Learning alot about relationships. I have discivered that I am not as clueless as I once thought. I love my friendships. I have amazing people in my life and I have learned alot from them. I suppose a shout out is in order...I want to say thank you to :
Christina for teaching me the importance of vulnerability
Mark for showing me how much I value listening
Rebecca for teaching me that its o.k. to talk about guys and for listening
Melanie for showing me what true forgiveness looks like and for listening
Leslie for showing me a different kind of leadership
Bethann for teaching me the importance of stepping out of my comfort zone
Clay for teaching me what true sacrifice looks like and for teaching me to think outside the box
Bender for teaching me what true humility looks like
Dave Reichley for teaching me to be real
My link group for renewing my passion in link group
Greg and Rachel for showing me what it is to really love and care for someone
Lydia for showing me the importance of being myself
Tali for reminding me of the power of prayer
Josh Smith for making me work harder to escape being 30 years old and single...hee hee
Later

Praying

I have been doing alot of praying lately. Circumstances are such in my life right now where I can't think of what else to do. I am learning so much about relationships with people that it is changing my life. My views are changing and I am having to rely on the Lord to teach me the right ways to think. I have been praying on sunday mornings with Tali, Lydia, Banks and some others. We have been praying for the growth of our church and for the movement of the Holy Spirit through the lives of the people there. Those have been some very cool times. I have been praying every sunday night with the Hines', Bender and some new friends I have made. We are praying for guidance with the coffee house and the skate park. We have also prayed over our friends and have witnessed huge life change through that. The Lord has blessed me with amazing friends to pray with but he is also blessing me in the times its just me and him. I have been spending more time on my knees surrendering. Its amazing how simple my prayer becomes the longer I talk with him. I start to recognize how unnecessary speech is. I sit and listen and he knows my heart. Its also interesting how the more time I sit with him or talk with him the more I recognize how sinful I am. I am so sinful and I fall way short. He then reminds me of his ever so sufficient grace and I cry. These times of growth are painful...bitter sweet.

Father, forgive me for my sin that I know you are very aware of. Change my attitudes and ways of thinking so that I may better serve you and aid in the growth of your kingdom. Bless the friendships I have and I pray that I show them the love and grace that you show me. Give me an ever growing peace about the challenges that are near in my life and I pray for power and boldness in those endeavors. I love you. It is in Christ's name I pray.

No more nursing

Well I resigned yesterday from my job..........Oh my goodness. This is really happening. I cried. It was really sad to tell my boss of 4 years that I am looking not to work there any more. She told me that she didn't want me to leave and that there is an option of moving to 10% (which is 2 12 hour shifts a month). I could do that but the pay would be much less than if I went supplimental staffing. Either way I get no benefits. I have alot of praying to do. I am siked because this sunday a bunch of us that are planning to go into business are getting together to pray. I love that...we have very similar visions and are in need of Gods direction. So anyway, I will cease to be a CT-ICU open heart critical care nurse come end of July. Scary...it's what I know and am good at. Openning a coffeehouse? Don't know and have no idea if I am good at it. Faith is hard, I feel like I am free falling! What a rush! :-)

The Run Down

Wow! alot has happened since Christmas. Hmmm Lets see if my calendar can relive my last couple of months:
*Trilogy tuesday at the Reichleys--awesome
*Started accountability wtih Rebecca and Mel. Best ever. Love you ladies.
*Link group is growing and is amazing. shout out to my linky people.
*I preach... hello. Worst and best moment of my life. Oh how the Lord stretches me.
*Ben Ogden moves to Florida. My roomy is sad, lots of talking.
*Good hang time with Lydia Bandy, Jossy, and Ericka Sharpe
*Christina and I go to New York. Very Cool and a good break
*Work: People die, People live and my boss's expectations are increasing
*Lots of movie nights at the Reichleys. Absolute favorite activity!
*Snow!! Still have to work
*Ashleigh Parkers Wedding Shower! Weird but cool! She's getting married!
*Soccer with Banks and Rebecca, first and last time!
*Help with Capernum at Grace fellowship. That was awesome. Those kids are amazing.
*Hang time with Leslie, Mark and Bethtanne comes to visit. I love my friends.
*Super Bowl party... best part is that Chris and I went to Cheesecake Factory in the middle. yes!
*Coffee House, Coffee House, Coffee House..Research, writing, reading, talking...lots of time.
*Hang time at LochRaven wtih Hines Family, Bender and Sean
*I babysit on V-day. Cool! I can do it.
*Get very sick! Hacked up a lung.
*Jadon teaches me to snowboard. Ouch!
*Most incredible conversation with Kaggin at Link Group. God is working!
*CHICAGO FOR THE COFFEE FEST.---t'was incredible. Went with my mom and had a good time. Got lots of free stuff. Flew home in the snow without one problem. Praise God!

Now I'm home recovering from my trip...unpacking. I feel rested and am praising God for the canceled meeting today. The snow is gorgeous even though I don't like snow. God and I did alot of talking this weekend. My faith grows and so does my uncertainty. I guess that makes sense. I know I am in his hands and I pray I stay in His will. I am reminded of the verse about my weakness being His strength. No doubt. When this coffee house happens...there is no credit that is not to Him. I am not doing this!!!...Praise God for that. I would screw it up.